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 Not a whole lot has been going on lately.

I can't believe my baby is already one =( How the heck did that happen?
Every time I see a new little baby it makes me want another one. If things were different I would love to but I'm stuck waiting.
I'm sure I'll get over it but *tear*.

Our plan right now is to have my Mirena removed September 4ish 2010. 
I start school in October- I will be taking Medical Office Administration. 
I want another baby but I do NOT want to be pregnant and in school again. I must wait until I am done.

Brooklyn is getting baptized August 9th. I still have to figure out what we are going to do afterwards.
I do NOT like people. Well, I like people but do not like large groups of people that I have to play 'host' to.

Last night I ended up going dt for one of the first times ever.
I am an extreme light weight. I had WAY more than I had planned on.
I went out with Rob's two brothers (his younger brother just turned 19 so his 27 year old brother and his best friend took us out).

I think over the course of the night I had a random vodka/soda water drink, a shot of..something, a tequila shot, a 'violent f*ck', a white freezie drink, a sex on the beach, a jolly rancher shot and maybe a few sips of other peoples drinks. We tried going to a strip club (as per *my* request- I had never been to one before) but they were closed so we ended up just grabbing a cab and going out for chinese at 3 am. Made it to bed a bit before 5. 

Thankfully Rob let me sleep til almost 12. His mom is out of town so I got her bed as baby was in bed with Robert.
It was fun. I've never really had a night out with my bil's before. Today was definitely a lazy day. I am still in my pj's from last night.

Tomorrow we get to super clean as their mom is coming home from BC.

Ah well, I should go to bed

I am trying to learn how to type- so far it is not going well at all.
I can't seem to figure out what finger is supposed to do what. I also am having a lot of trouble remembering what key is where.
It is becoming increasingly frustrating. I am such a terrible learner.

I have decided for sure that I do not want to go back into ECE next year like I am supposed to.
This is creating quite the problem for me. I have thought about it and am seriously considering going to Everest college.
Some one I am close with is married to someone who both attended and taught at the one I am interested in attending.
He know the instructor of the course I want to take and highly recommends going there with her.
She apparently has excellent contacts in the city and does a very good job of getting her girls jobs.

Right now the main thing holding me back is my inability to type.
I am trying to practice more now but gah I am awful.It doesn't help that usually when I get a chance to be on the computer I am holding a baby & only get to use one hand.

Other thing I am not liking is that the class runs 5-9 Monday to Friday for 12 months.
It will be really hard & I will certainly lose a lo of sleep (on top of missing dinner/bedtime/basically seeing Rob at all for a year).
So much to think about.

On another note- my baby is almost ONE! How the heck did that happen?

Talk me out of wanting another baby asap!!

I'm having extreme baby fever. I grew up with a 2 year gap between my sister and I and LOVED it.
I had always envisioned a 2yr gap between my kids and we're getting close to that soon.
Doesn't help I keep seeing preggos and new babies.

I am home ALONE in the middle of the afternoon.
This is something that never happens, I love it.
This morning we woke up and had breakfast and then the baby took a nap( she wont let me put her down for naps, thankfully daddy was home). As soon as he got her down he had to run off to school.

I was cooking and couldn't shower right away.
Of course before I finished eating baby was up.
Time to load the bathroom with an excersaucer and baby signing time.

The door was open so the room wouldn't steam up.
In the middle of my shower Rob walked in (which surprised me as he was supposed to be at school).
He took the babe which meant I could SOMEWHAT shave my legs for the first time in weeks - scary.

After that I fed her some lunch and got her ready because he offered to BRING her to school. SCORE!!
It's his last day before exams. So now I am baby free until sometime around 3 =D

I can't believe how much has changed so quickly.
Brooklyn is over 9 months old. She is HUGE- it probably doesn't help that she eats as much as a grown man but whatever.

Just today consisted of:
Breakfast- a WHOLE banana,
                    an entire pear
                    a full little bowl of apple sauce
                    one shredded wheat (the big ones)
                    and some cheerios

Lunch- Not as good as usual as she was dressed and had to leave soon
               -Shell noodles
                -Navy beans and a little shredded cheese over top

 

In case you're wondering, remotes DO in fact bounce off of baby heads...poor muffin <3

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( Pictures!! )

I really want to go have a shower but I know as soon as I get in there the baby will wake up.
She is so fussy right now. I mean, I understand why- what with teething and needing a nap and hitting her head (again) & all.
I feel so bad. It seems almost every day I am with her she bangs her head (not everyday really, just about 3 times in the past 2 weeks).
Not hard at all but still. She gets the most painful sounding scream. Twice it was from her flipping back while in the glider chair with me and pushing the wood part into her head.

I have a massage today! Not until 3 but still. And then while I am there I get to go get x-rays.
I saw a chiropractor last week and apparently am more messed up than I thought. He can't touch me until he sees the xrays.
Apparently my hips, knees and back are all messed.
And to make it worse I may only have coverage until the end of the year..ie less than a month and then I probably have to wait until September to get on an insurance plan. I may as well enjoy the treatment I can get.

I can't believe how fast time is going. Hard to believe we are already getting ready for christmas.
I just got home from our baby play group. Every thursday we meet up. It's nice to be able to get out of the house.
I can't believe how big my baby is in comparison to all of those babies. Ah well. They are all jealous- I got a cuddler.

Right now I am making some food as I am starving.
I really have got to stop eating so much junk. Losing a bit of weight would be nice.
Somehow I dont think that the chicken wings and fries that are in the oven are going to help much.

People keep asking me if I have started Brooklyn on cereal.
I don't think I ever will. I mean, sure I will give her real oatmeal and stuff at some point but I think I'm going to skip over the whole puree and spoon feeding stage. The more I look into baby led weaning the more I want to do it. -Plus it will force me to eat better as I will be giving her healthier things.

This weekend should be interesting.
We are going to the states to see my mom.
I'm not sure if we will be spending the night yet or not. She is getting a hotel room so we dont have to go all the way to Port Huron and we will have somewhere to hang out that isnt a mall or restaurant. I'm pretty excited as I will probably take the baby in the pool. SHe has never been swimming before. It's be awesome if I could convince Rob to let me use my camera for that as it is water proof. We shall see.

Hope all is well with everyone else!

I am on lj almost everyday but have the hardest time actually posting anything.
Not a whole lot goes on her and when I actually feel like writing anything the baby wont let me.
This is me deciding to try to make a conscious effort to actually update regularly.
I read everything. I need to leave more comments.

We have all been doing great here. I will update more on everything tomorrow.
Today was pretty unproductive though I did get some fun pictures of the baby.
I can't wait for Christmas for when I get my new camera.
It's so cute.
Plus as an added bonus it is drop-proof, freeze-proof and water-proof (which basically means, ME-proof)


I'm having lj-cut issues I apologize if I have to try and fix it later

( Baby Chubb )

( My favourite ones so you can skip the rest if you want- the was one nursing in the first bunch )

and..ALMOST sitting..it was cute, the first time she has ever done this before

List of things I want/need as soon as my money comes in:
     -PEDICURE!!- my feet are beyond hope at this point
     -Mei Tai
     -Nursing necklace- this kid is scratching/playing with everything on me she can reach
     -Camera (this will probably just wait until christmas)
     -Either a watch or a cell phone..again can wait til christmas
     -Cover thing for the carseat

I haven't posted anything in awhile because we have been rather busy moving Brooklyn into her new room! We still have to put the border up and adjust some shelves so I can put her books and animals on them (for now) but still.
(and with that came disconnecting the computer, lol).

It is nice having floor space that I can put music on and play on the floor with her. She LOVES to sing along.
If only I could get her to sleep in that crib all night long =( In the bassinet she would sleep all night.
Last night after getting up 16 times (I made that number up) between 3 and 4 I gave up and brought her to bed with me. She woke up screaming around 6:30 and then went back to sleep until after 10.

I am jealous that she gets more dresser space than I do (AND that she FILLS them up). Right now I have her in 6-9 month sleepers which look huge (especially in the feet) but I figure it is still better than the 3-6 month ones that she can't stretch out in.

I think she may be having problems with the diapers we are using right now.
She had never really had red bits until these went on. It stopped for a bit and then came back full force.
I switched to some pampers we had in the living room this morning and it seems to be looking a bit better. Aww the kirkland ones are much cheaper - but definitely not worth a sore bum. We have tried so many different diapers and I can't figure out why she would have a problem with those ones more so than any other kind. Oh how I wish I could just go to cloth.

Her surgery went well. It was very quick. We ran upstairs to get some food and when we returned it was over. When they brought me in she was screaming so loudly. A nurse was trying to rock her but it just wasn't cutting it. She took not eating for 4 hours before really well. She didn't start getting fussy until they were getting ready to bring her in. We were only in the hospital for around 5 hours. Unfortunately that night I had a class to go to and they didn't want me to miss it. I did NOT like leaving her for 3ish hours that night. When Rob got me he told me how much she cried and that she wouldn't eat. He was convinced it had been AGES since she had last eaten when in reality it had been less than 2 hours when he was trying to give her the bottle. We waste so much EBM I hate it.

( Hospital pictures + a few others )

My baby gets surgery Tuesday =(

I feel soo sick and can't sleep.
I can't believe how big Brooklyn is getting.
I will actually update later but for now here are some pictures.

( lots of pictures )

I should go make myself look somewhat presentable/human but instead I have decided to make a much needed post.

It's hard to believe that Brooklyn will be 10 weeks old tomorrow. My little baby is getting big already.
She had a doctors appointment last Thursday that made her miserable.
She is 23ish inches long and weighed 14lbs. Not bad considering she was 8lbs 3oz at birth and has never had anything except breastmilk. Her giant laundry basket that we have been filling with clothes she has outgrown is almost full =(
It really makes me want to have another girl- just not any time soon.
We have been talking about starting to try for another one in around 3 years. Hopefully by then we are both done school, have moved to B.C., are settled and have jobs, etc. We don't want to have too big of an age gap between them. To prevent having one sooner than that I am getting a Mirena put in in the beginning of October.

Thankfully my father has agreed to keep me on his health insurance for now. Otherwise I would have had to go on the one for St. Clair College which is not nearly as good. It would only cover 80% and no mirena and I'm pretty sure there is no dental coverage with that either.

Things have been pretty crazy. The day before Brooklyn was born my dad was over here helping Rob put up a wall in the basement and we discovered that none of my tax stuff has ever been done. I have been working since I was 15. None of the paper work I need to file stuff exists anymore- my dad had told me he had taken care of it all before and as I had no idea what to do with any of it I believed him and didn't question it. My osap from last year got screwed up somehow as well making it appear as though I failed ALL of my classes last year- most of which I had received A's in. A few weeks ago I got a letter - at the end of August as my family is soooo great at giving me my mail- that was dated for the beginning of July. I am apparently 2600$ in debt. I called them and started working it out so now I have to pay 100$ per month towards it.

I had to send a letter to Winnipeg in order to get my T4 papers so I can actually fix my tax situation.
I did this more than 2 weeks ago and haven't received anything back yet. It is starting to make me really mad because there is nothing I can do without it. I need to fix it before we can get any money from the government or even OSAP.

Every Tuesday and Thursday night for the next month I am stuck going to in-class driving things. I took it last summer but as it has been more than a year they are making me retake it in order to get certified. Apparently it is worth my sitting through 25 hours of this again just for the insurance break. Last night was the first one. I hate it. I don't like being away from my baby for that long- even though it is only 3ish hours. With Rob's brother having just moved to B.C. apparently what we will be doing with cars will be putting me as the principle driver on the g6 and secondary on the grand prix and his mom principle on grand prix and secondary on the g6 and just putting Rob and Kevin as occasional drivers on both.

I have an advent manual breastpump. It is sufficient as I don't really need to pump all that often. She seems to need between 5 and 8oz for a feeding. I can normally only pump between 3.5 & 6oz at a time though I have gotten 9 once.

Last Friday I went out to a party with one of my best friends that went away for the whole summer. She is in the navy and had been away from May to September. It almost felt wrong but was fun. I left Brooke with Rob. It was pretty bad all I had was 2 coolers and I was fairly drunk. Now every Wednesday when Rob goes to the university for jazz ensemble- he just became the singer..doing mostly frank senatra for the group- I am going to my navy friends house. It is convenient as he is parking in their driveway and I get to actually socialize.

I finally get to start putting together the baby's room soon. Kevin just has to paint Eric's old room and then he will be in the basement. I dont know if i wanna paint brooke's room or not. it is light blue right now. rob wants to do a winnie the pooh theme as people gave us a bunch of stuff. i am undecided. i wanna look for things at the mom2mom sale next weekend as we dont have bedding or anything.

Has anyone ever tried gdipes? i am considering it. we'll see what rob says. he seems to be really against cloth so i agreed to just wait until baby number 2 for that.

I have a miserable 14lb 2month old who just got shots. Any idea on how to make her a little happier?
It's breaking my heart (& giving me monster claw marks all over my chest)

I am exhausted but figured that I would throw some of these on here for you all to see.

I decided that it is about time that I UPDATE!!!
I am really boring and have not quite yet mastered typing two handed while feeding a baby- and one handed is a pain and takes me forever.
Brooklyn and I are both doing great. She is huge. It's hard to believe that almost 6 weeks have gone by (it will be 6 weeks tomorrow).
One thing that is disappointing about her getting so big so fast is that she keeps out growing EVERYTHING. She has very very little 0-3 months that still fit- many of which she has either never worn or wore maybe once or twice. Even some of her 3-6 stuff has started getting small =(
......so I started this update on wednesday. it should NOT take this long to get something like this done but everytime i start i have to deal with the baby.

le babe has started spitting up a lot more than usual. it's super fun. i especially love it when she gets it down my shirt and into the bra.
hard to believe that i have gone up to a d-cup. my boobs hate me for it and are COVERED in purple stretch marks.

i think i found someone to have me shadow them for a day with cloth diapering. i have always been interested. rob's moms hair dresser (she has been going to her since she was a teenager) has talked her into believing that it's a good idea as her daughter is going to do it -with flushable liners but still- i figure if i can get them into that i can move away from the flushables much easier than going from disposable to cloth. the lady that is letting me do this is super nice (please ignore my stupidity and lack of capitals- it is after 4 in the morning and i am sitting in the dark it just doesn't seem worth caring). She goes to the LLL meetings and was one of the first people that I talked to there. She has 3 kids under 3. Should be a fun day, i am just waiting for her to get back to me on a date. she has a cd addiction as well and just had her tubes tied. I am pretty sure at the very least she will let me borrow some to test it out plus she will help me hands on with everything else i would need to know.

anyways i should attempt some sleep. i will post more pictures soon. gonna upload from the camera tomorrow.

edit- i lied she is up again. yay for super awake babies

warning- i am in the dark and WILL have spelling mistakes.

I don't know what to do with myself. It's 3:30 and I am wide awake.
Brooklyn had a super day and is seeming to have a good night as well. She ate at 11ish (still for around an hour but compared to usual amazing) and didn't wake up until 1:15. I gave her the soother which we started yesterday as she would 'eat' for sometimes upwards of 5 or 6 hours, stop to nap for a few minutes and start again. I didn't want to use a soother- or at the very least not this soon (3 weeks) but am really glad to have it right now. By doing this she stopped crying and I managed to gewt to sleep until almost 2:30.

we went and got pictures from sears the other day. i will post some of them soon as we got the cd that went along with it. it took much longer than we had anticipated

Birth Story- Brooklyn Marie style!
8lbs 3oz
born at 5:08 pm July 10th 2008
39 weeks 2 days

If I don't get this done soon it will never end up getting done - I am already forgetting many of the details.

Wednesday night I slept surprisingly well for my super pregnant self which I am definitely happy about.
I had fallen asleep around 12 and didn't wake up to pee until just after 4.
I fell back asleep again and woke up just after 8.
This is where it starts to get fun.
I had been losing parts of my mucus plug since the Friday before.
This Thursday morning there was much more than usual though it was not tinted red or anything so I thought nothing of it.
I was still convinced I would be pregnant for at least one or more weeks.
When I got up I had what felt like a period cramp- you know the kind that make you want to curl up in a ball and throw up?
I went back to bed and my boyfriend and I started to have sex. It was very short lived as I was incredibly uncomfortable.
I then decided that since it felt like a menstrual cramp that I would do what I always did when I had really bad periods - Take a bath with a heavy soaking wet towel on top of my stomach. So I grabbed a book and made my way to the tub. This was just after 10.
I made it through a few chapters though I did have to keep putting the book down as I was having a 'cramp'. I am an idiot and didn't realize that cramps don't just come and go like that- CONTRACTIONS do. I finished up my bath and then had a shower. By the time I got out it was around 12. I went back to our room and Rob was convinced that it was more than just a cramp as I could tell him when it started and stopped.Some time around here I decided that I should eat as it was afternoon and I had had nothing yet. I went and got a honey dew melon out of the fridge and then Rob cut it up for me. I was walking around the house eating melon through contractions. We started trying to time them around this point but got a bit bored of it. Then were consistently coming every three minutes.

Everyone always says you will know when you are having contractions. This was not true in my case.
Around 12:45 I made a call to my doula. She said she would be here as soon as she dropped her kids off and to call her if I could no longer talk through things or if anything changed. We had been planning on spending a good chunk of labor at home. While we waited for her to come over I forced Rob to go shave and have a shower. His mother was getting a bit antsy- she kept calling to figure out why we were not in the hospital yet. Apparently my wanting him to shave first while having contractions every three minutes was a tad bit unreasonable.

Diane (the doula) made it to my house around 1:40.
It did not take long after she got there that I decided I wanted to go to the hospital.
She was surprised that the contractions were only 15-20 seconds long.
When we had met she forgot to ask about my level of pain tolerance- which is apparently pretty high.
Rob just started to get things for himself ready.
I helped to load up the car and then waited on the driveway while he ran back in the house to grab something else.
Thankfully it was over 90 degrees out and we had a black car with tinted windows as my water broke on the driveway while he was inside.
If it weren't so hot I would have likely been in the car when it happened (this was about 2 o'clock).
Diane was standing a few feet away from me when I started to say (in a very whiney voice "I'm leakinnnnnnnnnnnng".
I then ran back inside to change my shorts.
He filled the car with towels and lined the seat with a garbage bag. It was a bit unnecessary as her head was so far down it acted as a plug and my water did not continue to leak after that initial gush.

The trip to the hospital seemed to take forever.
For some reason there was really heavy traffic.
About half way there I started to feel like I was going to be sick.
We got to the hospital and checked in. Rob dealt with all the insurance stuff thankfully.
We then walked up to the delivery floor and got in triage.
While they hooked me up to things to check me out Rob went to go move the car out of the front area of the hospital.
Basically as soon as he left I started throwing up the melon I had eaten. I hate throwing up but I felt much better after. Plus, as bad as it sounds, honey dew is not the worst thing to throw up as long as you have your eyes shut- though I still can't bring myself to eat it again yet.
I was 3 cm dilated and completely effaced.
They had commented on how I must have been having difficulty walking for days as she was so far down. I could walk fine even then.

They went to get me a wheel chair but I insisted on walking to the delivery room.
Once there I just wanted to lay on my side. Rob had to go do something else with paper work for a minute and as soon as he left I began to throw up again. I could not figure out why this only happened when he left the room. I loved that Diane was there holding the basin and talking to me the whole time.

Wet cloths became my friend. I was really hot. After a little bit they got a giant bowl filled with ice water that they would cycle wash cloths and towels in before placing them on top of me. There were point I had a couple on my head, one on my chest, some on my legs, heavy ones on my stomach and between my legs, etc. We went through a lot of towels but they were the only thing that made me comfortable.

According to the people that were in the room- nurses, doula, etc. I labor really well.
They could only tell if I was having a contraction if they asked me for the most part.
I am pretty impressed. I said the 'f' word once and didn't scream at all though I did end up biting Rob a little bit right at the end.
People kept asking me what I wanted them to do. The only thing I replied with was 'just kill me' and then I continued on with that when they said no.

I had wanted as few interventions as possible.
At one point I had said I had changed my mind and wanted an epidural.
I could hear Diane request that they check me again as she believed I was in transition.
They checked again and I was 7cm. I no longer had the desire for drugs.
It felt like shortly after they checked me that time they checked me again and I was 10cm.
They called the doctor when I was at 7 I believe though they seemed to be getting nervous he was taking so long.
There was so much pressure I couldn't not do some involuntary pushing.
I just went with my body.
The nurses kept guessing how big the baby would be based on my size. Most were guessing between 6 and 61/2 lbs- boy were they wrong
One of the nurses started to get ready to 'catch' the baby when the doctor finally walked in.
As soon as he was there it seemed like contractions stopped.
I was happy to still be laying on my side.
Things started up again and it did not take long from there.
Diane asked if I wanted to feel the head. At first I said no but then did it anyways.
It felt so gross. The next time she asked I said no.
There was a tv in the corner of the room that had a reflection of everything that was going on down there.
I avoided looking into that as much as possible.

They put her right on top of me as soon as she slid out.
Rob cut the cord- which he compares to cutting through a finger.
They then took her to be weighed and wrapped her up while I delivered the placenta and got stitched up - I had a small tear that needed 3 stitches. Rob took the baby into the waiting room to see our families.
After a couple of minutes I sent Diane to get my baby back.
We then got her to the breast. She latched on perfectly right away. She was less than 15 minutes old at this point.
While I nursed her they took the blood work they were supposed to do while I was in labor.

I really can't complain about anything. It was such a positive experience. I still can't believe it happened so fast- we got to the hospital just before 3 & she was born just after 5. I felt great afterwards & still do for the most part. Now I am just tired as she has apparently entered a growth spurt & is nursing constantly. She was weighed yesterday and was 8lbs 13oz. She has gained a lb in slightly more than a week- she was 7lbs 13oz last Monday.